Sun in Scorpio: The convergence of birth & death

My dearest Leo risings,

I apologize for making you wait.

As it is wont to do, Scorpio season pulled me into my own depths and drew me closer to the dirt. As a 4th houser, your connection to the past and the way it’s always living through you is more immediately evident. Because of this, I’ve always had trouble forecasting. I prefer to look back; to reflect, to ponder, to convene with my former selves and seek their wisdom. So, what’s your 4th house season been like?

As your chart ruler traverses the underworld of your nativity, your quest (should you choose to accept it) is to observe, understand, and then subvert the expectations placed upon you by external reality structures. As you become more yourself, you’ll naturally become more of a disappointment to some people’s ideas of personhood and deservingness. There is often backlash when a person is fully realized, moving about in a world that functions on the disconnection between each individual and their inner world, but much like the sun, Leo rising, once you’re up, you’re up. There is very little point in attempting to stop the momentum of your inward expansion, but at the same time, don’t be surprised if it’s taking longer than expected for the rest of the world to notice.

Even when your inner world contains more discord than harmony, even when your former selves have made mistakes or possess fewer of the qualities you have aspired to and cultivated in yourself, they have their own desires and perspectives you can still learn from. Even if they exist behind the walls of permanently closed chapters. This Scorpio season, astrologically speaking, ushers in a major and permanent closing of a chapter in the form of Pluto’s official egress from Capricorn for the next two and a half centuries. Such is the burden of the Scorpionic, to carry us all on its back as we usher in monumental shifts in reality.

The waters of change are choppy and rough. The separation process between past and future is not always a clean cut. At the moment of birth, death is lurking in the corner, waiting to be called upon, and at the moment of death, a new world is born where the dead no longer exists.

The 4th house is where birth and death converge, and it’s always seemed to me that Scorpio is the most comfortable sign in the 4th house. Scorpio is where the moon is at her lowest, where she finds herself under the dirt, unable to reach to the sun for nurturance. Similarly, the 4th house is the bottom of the chart and always represents darkness and invisibility. Even if you don’t have your moon in Scorpio, the nature of your 4th house allows you to connect deeply to the urge to lay down and rot with the rest of the mushrooms. You don’t need to do anything to be intrinsically dependent upon invisible systems of communication and care; it’s a natural process like any other. Connecting with the mycelial network (the original 4th housers), sometimes, is as simple as dying, as peaceful as drifting off to sleep.

The Sun, ruler of your ascendant and commander of your chart, traverses your 4th house every year around this time. There is a reliability to this that bolsters your internal foundations and validates your occasionally irrational belief that it’s all going to be okay eventually. However, as the ruler of your 4th house prepares to spend an extended amount of time retrograding in and out of your 1st and 12th houses, the separation between your conscious and subconscious minds may be the place to inhabit, as uncomfortable as it is likely to be. Consider holding these two truths at once:

1. The body and mind are not two separate entities, and
2. There is no such thing as a ‘typical’ brain.

If you were to act as if both of these statements were unequivocally and irrevocably true, what would change for you internally? How would you relate to your inner world and your subconscious mind differently? How would this shift your feelings about venturing into the dream realm as a means of cultivating more self-trust?

You don’t have to become an expert in lucid dreaming, but consider choosing now as the time to embrace a new method of inward exploration that’s rooted in curiosity, compassion, and a willingness to listen to the wisdom of your unlived lives.

Thank you for reading.

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